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For all those times, all those misunderstandings, hurtful events, things taken a different way when they shouldn't have. All the times I have been enraged, all the times I have been sad, everything evolving around what some people call the center and extent of your life, has been growing. And during this growth, something evil was about to happen. An evil being, living deep inside wants to get the fuck out every now and then. But lately, the demon wants out more.
Fucking people. Where to begin. People are such nuisances and assholes, they always more than likely say something, then do something totally different, or dont tell you something, and someone else tells you, and you fucking hate the other person for not telling you something important like it.
Take Vanessa. Lets see. First of, I try to still tell her I still feel horrible and disgusted at myself for what I did, that my heart still yearns to be with her sometime, and that I missed her again more after seeing her again at Loco. I told her everything. Guess what she said? Sorry. Thats it. I told her something else I would have put in here if I saved, but I was so disgusted by her reactions that I immediately signed off or blocked her. I came on the next day and asked if she thought about it, and HEY! Guess what? Shes still sorry! HAHA! Any meaning? Fuck no. The girl doesnt give a shit what I think anymore. Im old, Im dead to her. And another thing. She can be really snoobish at times, constantly thinking her and her friends are always right. I know more about this kid she likes and is probably going out with than she would like to believe. Every thing is "No" I doubt it, caleb wouldnt do that. Naahhh, his ex's would totally lie to my face and nearly cry about it. Yea, they were lying. I could tell! Sarcasm obviously people. I fucking know about that kid, and I just tried to warn her. I wasnt jealous or shit, and she has to go and turn it into a whole big deal. Well fuck you bitch. If he hurts you, dont come back and say sorry. I fucking hate people that do that to me. They totally fucking ignore what I have to say, and when I turn out to be right, there ass comes back apologizing. Fuck you, you should have listened to me in the first place.
Second off, people talk shit ALL THE FUCKING TIME. Stupid fucking freshmen who associate with a new friend, Siara, talk the biggest shit about me. They dont know dick about me. I dont even fucking know Head-up-my-ass, Tara, and she goes around telling this chick Siara to be careful of me, and that I sleep with so many girls. Fuck you bitch. You look like Sandy from Spongebob, props to Dan for that comment. hehe. Anyway, who the fuck do people think they are when they start saying shit about other people that isnt true at all? At least if i say it, and then they back it up, or i realize I was wrong, Ill take it back or apologize, very relunctantly though.
Otherwise, life is quite good. An old crush since for a long time, might want to be my significant other, and I got this new totally kickass friend Siara. But shit, it sucks. Really. I have my crush on one hand, and I dont know whats going to happen, and on the other, I have Siara, who if i went out with my crush, she wouldnt ever believe me about shit again. Christ. I hate sticky situations. And, I just dont know what to do for once. I want to go out with my crush, but I dont want to lose trust in this new friendship already. (II told Siara I really liked her cuz she liked alot of the same stuff, etc. She wasnt boring to talk to, and she wasnt a ditz.) But then theres my crush. Ive always wanted to go out with her. And well, FUCK! I just dont know. I'll probably feel terrible either way, lol...God damnit. Lets hope something happens to get me out of this. Like what, I dont know. I mean, even though Siara doesnt want a relationship, she surte doesnt act that way. I think this is the thing she didnt wanna tell me on the phone that day, so Im just guessing she really likes me. Dunno. Argh, I hate this shit. My crush for a looong time, or not retarded kickass Siara. FUCKING A!! SOMEONE HELP ME!! lol, Ill throw a secret competition. Whoever makes first move, gets me first! Lets hope neither of them read this.
Well, I dont know what else to write. Ive had my ranting taken out. Oh, and smashing things with a big metal pipe and shooting shit with a BB gun, is alot of fun. Just dont do it outside. Then you get neighbors coming out and yelling and almost getting arrested by being threatened to call the cops...Yea.
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